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Disinfected Motel Beds
03:59
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Disinfected Motel Beds
This town is full of churches and I'm so sick of the bells
I forgot how to sleep. With closed eyes I can see.
This room is full of over thinking, sometimes reminds me that
My mind was trapped in the west, on disinfected motel beds
I'm far away
My subconscious says: how could I stay?
How much further from the person I want to be
This is a self-knowledge way for me
I'm still sorry, that I can't show you the better person
Who I think I became
This is a thing of the past, anyways
After you lived your sweetest dream
You'll get used to it, I swear
Like when you feel something new.
I talk to myself in wayside motels:
What does it really mean "the home"?
It's morning and I'm packing my bag somewhere near Nevada.
Yesterday's sunrise was something unreal from the 31st Floor.
Maybe I am just too romantic, but I could watch the desert for hours and hours
As if I know it, but I've never been here before.
Another day another place, "hence there's no greater joy than to have an endlessly
changing horizon, for each day to have a new and different sun."
I won't tell you that everything will change
but I'm closer to who I am
by the pain we are who we are, I'm healing, when I'm afar
I don't tell you that everything is fine
Just let it flow, yeah
After you lived your sweetest dream
You'll get used to it, I swear
Like when you feel something new.
I talk to myself in wayside motels:
What does it really mean "the home"?
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Arizona
04:08
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Arizona
Drove to the west
Sunset burned into my bones
I felt it in my chest
Something changed
When I saw that burning sky on horizon
this was the reason, why I said "hold on" to myself
I was there, I was there then
I guess, that's what they say is "right place at the right time" and
Who wants to saying goodbye before it happen?
We're rolling forward into the night while listenin' to "Foxing"
I still remember deer in the headlights, before into Utah
If I could know that
Then I’d never come back
On the way to leave
I’ve never felt so away
Finally I can breathe
For a while I waited
When I saw that burning sky on horizon
this was the reason, why I said "hold on" to myself
I was there, I was there then. I was fine
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Funeral
03:51
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Funeral
Don't save me
If I'd beg for it
Bury me
When I die
before I go on to waste my time
I'm waiting, waiting
barely breathing, breathing
I'm still choking by the past
I would pray now, if I believed in god
but I don't and I've lost my pride when I looked in your teary eyes
It feels like, when your best friend moves out of town
I was there
At my own funeral
I never believed in hell
So I’m safe from it all
I'm trying, trying
But I'm dying, dying
I've never been so close to nothing
Can I rewrite my story?
Because you won't see the best of me
I smile but I still wanna die
'Cause I never noticed that I’ve hurt you so
I wasn't ready for this
I wasn't ready for this
Nothing feels the same, I'm changing, I'm not me anymore
I've started to lose my faith in myself, but summer's at my door
I'm staying fuckin' away
I learn from my mistakes and that "time heals", but I can't wait
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Waves
05:04
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Waves
Have you ever felt that something isn't real?
Is this okay?
Have you ever felt the numbing?
'Cause I felt it yesterday
Have you ever felt that nothing will change?
Is this okay?
Have you ever felt like leaving?
'Cause I feel it everyday
I hold it open, that vision, the few days in L.A.
Before it's over, 'cause I'll lose it anyway
Hey
I've been wasting to much time to forgive myself, years flies by, I'm still depressed
But I won't, But I won't, But I won't lose my control anymore
My mind was washed so clean by Californian waves
I felt for the first time that, I did not waste my days
It's more than anything
It's more than anything
It's more than
Who said that "you can't leave behind the pain"?
Because I already know, when get a message from my soul
Who said that "you can't leave behind the pain"?
Because I already know, when get a message from my soul
When get a message from my soul
When get a message from my soul
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Extraterrestrial Highway
03:33
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Extraterrestrial Highway
Nevada in August is hotter than hell
But I am okay, I'm honest
Think that we're not alone in the Universe
But we're all alone on the Earth
I'm just saying
I'm just thinking
When I'm sad and happy at the same time
I don't feel alone
My thoughts got meaning at the right time
I need to be alone
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Meltdown of Thoughts
05:09
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Meltdown of Thoughts
"Would you like me to stay?"
Panic attacks are slowing down, anyway
That was just the beginning on that day.
Have you lied into my eyes?
Have you lied into my eyes?
My tears made me feel miserable and
Saying something has never been planned
I can't stay away
I’ve never been as sad as I am tonight
But I guess I've already said that many times
I'd stay away
When I found out, I just lost my best friend
I felt it in my bones
When my mouth didn't move 'cause of the mind
I felt myself like a stone
You're late to save me
So I save myself. Alone
You're late to save me
So I save myself. Alone, alone, alone
The total meltdown of thoughts is unexpected, but it comes
Why do I hear sounds when I'm home alone? Ohoo
My thoughts really frighten me. I tried to stop, but it just grown
And nobody noticed that I was not myself, I know
It only exist in my head
I have to let go and not shred
It will be cleaner, when it's over
It only exist in my head
I have to let go and not shred
It will be cleaner, when it's over
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Balance
03:36
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Balance
Sometimes I feel, I'm better off
While the sorrow flows into my spirit
Sometimes I feel, I just need it
The only thing that's real
Euphoric melancholia
It's similar to when the light-toned blue turns orange on the last day of summer
It's similar to when those flowers grew out of concrete cracks
Euphoric melancholia
I knew it very well from the start
How could you be happy, if you had never been sad before?
How would you know yourself, if you're afraid to be alone?
I hold open my mind's door
Come back! I'll show you the way
Don't waste it another day
Just realized, that you are my everything
Come back! I'll show you the way
Don't waste it another day
Just realized, that you are my everything
What if I feel myself reverse?
Unhappiness is happiness that works
That roller coaster is my everything
What if I feel myself reverse?
Unhappiness is happiness that works
That roller coaster is my everything
Sometimes I feel, I'm better off
While the sorrow flows into my spirit
Sometimes I feel, I just need it
The only thing that's real
Euphoric melancholia
I knew it very well from the start
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Something's Wrong With Me
Depression never comes at the right time at all
Suppression doesn't works, I have tried before
"You're an old soul" they said
I left my body on my bed
I see clearly now what was blurred so far
Two feet on the ground is a dull affair
Finger on the trigger isn't fun at all
I don't feel like talking, lost myself in daydreaming
I feel I'm not really here, always planned disappear
I ever felt that something is wrong with me
But I guess I learned a lot in the last year, as I thought
Depression always comes unexpectedly
Sometimes I feel, that there are two people in me
I'm peeling off my fingertips
Maybe this will never be fixed.
Suicidal thoughts through my head,
If I would be inclined to do, I would be dead
Those demons only consist in my head
Practically, happiness just can't be enduring
Only the insignificant can be lasting
That's okay, because things always have to change
Home alone on my birthday already doesn't seem so strange
Already doesn't seem so strange
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Slowly
03:35
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Slowly
I felt the bad vibes, when you got in my car
I always see these things
I've heard thundering, the storm isn't far
too late to promise anything and
I had cold shiver, but it was May
There's so many times, I have let you down
I was late, I'm always late
Everything is motionless, since you've been gone
I don't blame you, that you haven't stayed and
I had cold shiver, but it was May
Don't be fooled that my foot's on the ground
Because my head is up in the clouds
Be quiet, these daydreams are my home
Straight back to the floor, shut the door
Who's the one who can keep the control?
Back to the floor, shut the door
Who's the one who can keep the control?
I want to change, I don't want to miss you anymore
I hugged you for last time on my Grandmother's funeral
I don't wanna that you take me back
I don't wanna that you take me back
I'm already not that plastic bag in the wind
What you dropped, I'm a little bit died
Too much overthinking on "How bad person I am"
Feelings gone slowly like summer turn into autumn and
I'm feeling good now far from you on the road
To SF makes me let you go
Too much overthinking on "Did you thought of me?"
I'm swimming with the flow slowly, slowly
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The Vernal Esztergom, Hungary
Five guys who want to make you feel happy and sad at the same time.
Balázs - vocal
Marcell - guitar
Áron - bass
Árpi - guitar
Peti - drums
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